21st Jan 2011
Friday // 4pm // 2 years ago
its kinda nice…
its kinda nice…
by the sea!
The beautiful place i live…
words.
make you or break you
words.
whether or not they are true
words.
are gonna slowly fill me
words.
are gonna kill me slowly
words.
when you dont say them
words.
when you do
words.
will always change how i feel about you
speak.
nicely
say it.
rightly
i want to hear it say it out loud
dont want to lose me dont be too proud
words.
every day
words.
cant hear what you say but
words.
despite all you’ve been saying
words.
left me think you’re playing
now
i cant play back
i am a cat
who just lost a toy
i was just going to destroy
words.
that would have been so good to push your way
words.
you’re never gonna hear the words that i say
seriously seriously SERIOUS????
is that what it takes? you either love me or you hate me. there appears to be no middle ground. i could have told you more, to make you hate me more. i hope you feel better about yourself coz i do certainly feel like a whore thankyou very much!!!
um yeah n that was interesting.. part of me wanted to rub it in… make it seem worse than it was.. another dull it down, pass it off, whatever, talk to you later…
im too fake
im too good at it
you had no idea
so im hoping i still feel like the winner..
hahaha who am i kidding i got the hot brilliant guy n i shower once a day.. sometimes more… of course i win.
i have too much stuff… but like… how do i get by without my toaster? my bed? my homebrew kit? my pillows? my posters? they’re all going with me.
part of me just wants to lay down for a nap: a big part of me. the other part, the smaller bit, wants to put everything in the car NOW. but i can’t. i gotta deliver it to someone else to pack. n then im gonna be left with some dregs to clean up… at like midnight… before i spend an entire day driving tomorrow…
a thought has occurred.
DAYM im an idiot moving house… so far… away from him, away from mum, away from cheap rent… away from some of the best people in the world.
but i gotta remind myself.. if i’m gonna go so far for this… i’m gonna do it well.. i’m gonna do it amazing… i’m gonna rock at being me!!

im not obsessed
he’s just the most beautiful thing i ever seen
never respected a man like i respect him
never wanted a man like i want him
my life as a man-hater is over!!!!